Even though I know better I still torture myself from time to time
On my workout site I record 4 to 5 minutes exercise routine demos that people can then print out and do at home. I have been doing this for more than two years and from time to time I will look over the video just to make sure everything is correct. Yesterday I was in a bit of a funk, and I taped four workout examples. During the process of transferring them to a dropbox I decided to watch. Mind you I know I am in decent shape, for my age, for having children, and simply I’m relatively fit. I know this, and I have made part of my living off of this, and I have dedicated a lot of time over the years training and eating well. Having said all that I took one look at myself in the video and became fixated on a tiny bulge I saw on my lower belly. Was it the pants? Had I eaten wheat lately? What was that sticking out during my lunging, curling and hopping? Now my grumpy mood was complete. I went from bad to worse and then started diving deep into an over analysis of myself, my life, my age, and oh yes my body. Brutal, and stupid!
I don’t make it a habit to dwell on things or draw attention to behavior that is foolish. Especially my own. However, I think it’s important to share how natural it is to focus on the things we don’t feel good about on our physiques, and that means ALL of us. This is not only human this is grade A female. I caught myself from diving deep, but it took me a while to shake the residue of dark cloud floating above my head and my mood. One can only continue to work hard, be thankful for all the good, and shine light on the positive attributes. I remember some cheesy beauty add that chirped “eliminate the negative, accentuate the positive”. Gag, but let’s borrow it, even just for today.
To be human is to continuously be humbled and reminded you better hold on to your sense of humor. Attitude really is everything. We all hold Aces and twos in our hand. Your choice what card you want to play.
Don’t forget how great you are, Gabby